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Wednesday, March 21, 2007 3/21/2007 05:56:00 PM / top

"why must i pay for u when its ur thing and not mine?"

my mum said that when i asked $13 from her for the class tee.
i dont know why has she become so money sensitive to me ever since my brother went for national service.
It has been one year plus already.
everytime when she said this type of stuff, it will make me feel that she look upon me as a burden
and i will have a very strong urge to quit sch, so i can work, earn my own money and do not have to depend on her.
i can still rmb vividly that she once told me that actually she regretted giving birth to such a bad girl like me.
she said this when i was primary two.
can u believe it.
whats even more ridiculars was that, i have been a very very sensible girl when i'm young.

i cried for a few minutes this morning
cant help it, its too hurting.
it is quite easy to convince myself that its not worth to feel sad for someone who look upon me as a burden.
too bad, i'm her child.
take it or not, she has the responsibility to feed me.
thats what nina told me very very very long ago.
maybe i shld pluck up my courage, control my tears
and tell me my mum this when she say hurtful things to me again.
this dont affect me that much like the previous time, i'm backed to my cheerful self when i reached school.

miracle do happen.
mr ang held the sec4 and 5s back after flag raising
higher chinese was the first period
pak meng and me were expecting lao chai to get emo and scold us for being late
but she didnt
this is the first time that she is in a very good mood.
=D
woah woah.
so pakmeng and me were like exchanging glares
haha.

i need a haircut!

more and more ppl do not have a tagboard in their blogs so i shld have one then.
and yea! the tagboard is backed
must tag okay?