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Wednesday, March 14, 2007 3/14/2007 01:24:00 PM / top

took bus58 with xinyi to pasir ris.
we have a very hard time finding the shuttle bus that goes down to alohal loyang.
but in the end still manage to find our way to the bus stop.
we board the small shutter bus and later realise that everyone in the bus was heading to the same chalet of the birthday boy.
so the birthday boy came to fetch us.
the same grp of ppl saw us and one of the guy shouted to the birthday boy
"why u invite two xiao meimei here"
i feel so insulted lah.
@#$%^&
u are only older than us by a few years old only.
and u call us xiao meimei!
do i look very little?
i got the urge to turn back and shout at that person
but of course being a civilised and smart person i didnt do that.
both of us were outnumber anyway.

my heart was thumping very fast at that time.
i seriously have no idea what to do when i see him.
didnt go into the chalet in the end.
just pass the birthday boy the presents.
i am quite sure tt he see me though.
he saw me and he headed back immediately.

alohal loyang is a very nice place.
the atmosphere suepr romantic
more like a resort =D
it was drizzling at then,
xinyi and me went to the beach for a while.
the sea breeze, the light intensity, the jetty, the atmosphere
was wondeful.
at time we were wishing that our "boyboy" are beside us.
he is so near me but yet so far.

we went to pasir ris mrt and boarded 88.
and i did smth very ridiculars in the bus.
i change my clothes!
we were at the second decker and nobody was behind us then.
i'm not crazy okay!
i was wearing a dress
then i wear my gz tee and sch skirt over first
and took out the dress.

sms him and he finally did reply.
yea! he finally receive the present

yst was also a very impt day.
i finally get him to say he wanna break instead of silent break which is so much more terrible
at least i know tt at the moment we break, we still love each other.
i didnt try to save the r/s at all.
i'm too tired of trying.
i still rmb dec/jan, i tried so hard to get him back
(yes, i am talking abt the same person)
although i suceed but i dont have the energy to do it again and convince him tt we shldnt leave each other.
cry a little yst and this morning.
although i still love him a lot but i know we are not suitable and i dont exactly feel super sad
i wanna share his problems, i wanna to lighten his load but he dont give me the chance to.
so its kind of useless in staying in this r/s
where i cant do my part.

send him the very last sms this morning.
the words tt i wrote on a card during valentines' day
didnt give him the card yet, and i dont have any more chance to pass it to him.
so ya,he has officially become my ex-boyfriend.

lets just hope tt i wont think of him too much in the rest of my life.
bye adrian goh chen juay.
take care.

i let go willingly.
like what i told him in the last sms.
(in chi) at least i have been deeply in love with you before and u have love me before.
Thanks for the memory.
Bye

This will be the very last time i am missing you.