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Monday, March 12, 2007 3/12/2007 08:33:00 PM / top

this week is not a holiday
more like a cca week.
syf coming!!
i shall work very hard for gz and attend every practices
=D

tml going to my friend's chalet, his birthday party.
still dont know how to tell my parents yet
though i'm not staying over.
my mum told me that my dad keep complaining abt me going out and stuffs.
aiya, i also dont know what to say.
at first i was thinking tt, i shld just leave a note.
telling my mum tt i got gz and chinese ssp.
after tt i will go to my friend birthday's party straight after sch.
then i will reach home before 12am or smth like tt.

cause my mum works in the morning and she will see the note.
My mum dont really make a big fuss of me going out.
i just realise tt my dad will be working afternoon shift.
which means if i leave the note there, he will see it too.
and he will nag and nag and nag at me in the morning when i go for gz
or maybe he will ask why i didnt tell him the previous night.
blah blah blah.
then he will decide tt i cant go.
and we will start quarreling...

what shld i do what shld i do.
initially i wanted to go to the chalet because my bf asks me to
but now i want to go because his friend is so nice, always there for me when i have emotional breakdown or smth.
so u see, i must go.
although i will only be passing him the present and leave
since i dont know anyone there
and there is some breakdown btw my suppose to be bf and me.
my bf will not be there to accompany me anyway

second reason-
i need to pass my suppose to be bf his valentine's day present
and this will most probably be the last chance i will be seeing him.
but i dont really care, maybe i wont even get to see him tml
i just want the present to be out of my sight, out of my house.
i just wanna know tt the present is with him.

everytime when i think of him, i will get very emo.
to stop myself from getting emo, i force myself not to think.
dont have the time to get emo.
sec4 life is so tough!