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Monday, February 26, 2007 2/26/2007 09:02:00 PM / top

yst i had an emotional breakdown agained and my tears just stream down when i'm bathing.
my heart ache. i thought i have already forgotten him but i did not.
before that i went to meet elton and asked him to helped me pass the present to him.
and again i thought w/o the presence of that present it will be easier to forget him.
But its just so difficult.

I was so desperate for help at that moment.
and as my tears stream down when my hearts ache,
i finally understand how my jiemei xinyi have been feeling.

all these are the results of wounded love.
when we love a person too much and they dont, we get hurt.
i saw a trend in my love life.
when the boys treat me super good, sweet like honey
I'll lose feelings for them very easily.
I dont know how to cherish ppl who are nice to me.
but cry for ppl who do not treat me well or hurt me.
no wonder ppl say i'm weird.

yst night, luckily ~~his~~ goodfriends are there for me.
They made me laugh while i'm going through the emotional roller coaster.
still i wanna say THANKYOU.
although they wont see it.

Quite a number of ppl said that i look very sad today.
maybe i am?
i dont know.
Wasnt feeling very well today, have a headache after yst emotional ride.
my head feels hollow too.
no mood for anything, thats why i keep stoning
and oh ya, bio lessons are putting me to slp!(random)

I dont know how many times i have to stop myself from thinking of him today.
arggg.
when can i forget him.
damit damit.

ps: can someone just erase his number and him from my memory!!!