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Saturday, January 06, 2007 1/06/2007 09:50:00 PM / top

i have finally decided not to blog anymore.
=D
i'll close down the blog the next time i use comp
which will be next friday if i am not wrong.

reason being, i realise that for the past years
my brain didnt get to rest, i am constantly thinking what to blog abt
and its kind of driving me nuts.
it seems like my brain is talking to myself.
come to think of it, it may be a pyschological problem...
i cant be bother to look for a psychologist and it will be a waste of money
why depend on other ppl or medicine? be independant
so i'm gonna stop blogging and cure my blogging sickness.
hopefully my brain will be back to normal.
whats normal like, anyway?
~~this sounds really insane.~~
this is insane

enerjas' sicknesses
currently i'm suffering from insomnia and i have nightmares(at least to me is a nightmare) everyday.
for the past nineteen days already.
ever since......

i'm the slave of computer and handphone
or u can say modern technologies
i cant live w/o them
especially nowadays.
i am so use of smsing, talking on the phone.
i'm constantly checking my phone for sms-es.
the irony is that i'm half hoping that ppl will sms me.
i feel so weird and lonely when i saw tt i didnt receive any new messages or calls
but i also wish tt ppl wont sms me because my handphone bills overshot like crazy already.
I'll be so tempted to reply sms.
the maximum of days i can tahan w/o comp is two days.
once i use the comp, thats the end of it.
i'll be stuck to the chair, eyes glue to the keyboards and monitor.
because of that, i got distracted and i cant study.

sometimes in sch, i'm quite quiet
even i cant stand myself
and sometimes is not that i dont wanna talk.
when i talked, i dont know why ppl cant hear and then there will be no response.
it'll seems like u all are ignoring me which is not true.
but sometimes i'm just stoning.
( most of the time still very noisy)
when there is cca grp discussion
and if ppl dont catch some of the sentences i said
it'll turn out that i didnt inform u guys when i thought i did
and somehow i'll feel bad.
am i really that soft-spoken, i dont think so right?

thats the confession of jaslin's inner sickness.
dont avoid me after reading all these, cause i'm still _blank_
at least i know whats happening to me.(nth to be proud of actually)

THE END.